Life Changes...

One of my favorite quotes has always been, Life is about changes, Sometimes it is painful, Sometimes its beautiful, but most of the time its both. That has never been more true then the last 6 months of my life. I am going to take you back to June, where I left off and tell you what has happened.

I went and got my niece, she was living with us and everything was going great... life was perfect... (August) Megan started school, we got everything going great, the construction on the house was coming along great... (September) My grandmother felt dizzy, now mind you she had just beaten cancer for the 4th time... She stood up to go to the bathroom, and fell to the floor, she told my grandfather she was dizzy and she would be fine... TWO HOURS LATER.... my father went downstairs and found her still on the floor... HE FLIPPED... Needless to say, they called 911 and she was rushed to the hospital... apparently she had a brain Aneurysm and she started bleeding in the brain... she was on machines for a while and because its in her final wishes that she not be hooked up to machines, they took her off... they said if she could not survive with out them there was nothing they could do. She died on September 9 2011... I got to Indiana on the 10th. I went up there to help my family with arrangements and to help clean for company. It was not the family reunion I was hoping for... none of us were... but it was done none the less... on September 23rd my then husband called me and told me that he felt it was time for us to move on... after 10 years it was over... just like that... I got home on the 25th and packed all of my shit and moved out. It hurt... not losing him so much as losing everything i had worked for in the 10 years we were together... I worked hard to make it through each day with out the pain and tears... October rolled around and I surrounded myself with my friends and family and realized how truly unhappy i really was in the marriage... I spent a lot of time with my best friend from high school, Brandi, and her family... their room mate, brian *who i went to middle school with* called me from his out of town job with the fairs and such just to see how i was doing, it just so happened that at that very moment I was stranded on the side of the road with my 9 month pregnant sister... i ran out of gas... BIG SHOCKER... my ex left me with a shitty car anyways... thats where it all began... him and I talked EVERYDAY... we really hit it off... He came home in November, and we have been pretty much inseparable since. We had our first thanksgiving together, and then Christmas *which i have always hated*, new years, valentines day, and I hope to spend many more with him... My divorce was final on Friday January 13th 2012, and things have been even better since then. I have fallen madly in love with Brian, he makes me laugh and keeps me smiling... He loves me for me and doesnt want to change a thing about me. We are taking it day by day but planning for a long future together... He has a daughter who I adore... shes a nut just like her father... and I hope to one day have one of my own... we will see where life takes us and thats where life becomes beautiful... you cant predict the future, but you can dream of what you want... what you can hope to happen... on another note... I have gotten 4 tattoos since November... I got a lotus flower on my foot, the panda on my back *matching with brandi* my breast cancer ribbon on my left leg, and my shamrock on my right (matching with Megan).... Im working at starbucks now and life is wonderful

Life, and all the great things in it!

It has recently been extremely busy the last few weeks, and it is just going to get busier. My last big post was in October 2010 its now June 2011... WOW... Anywho a LOT has happened since I last posted. I finally had my court date for disability and it was rescheduled due to them not sending me the info I am entitled to. Now I am going to find a lawyer to help me. I am also looking into becoming a Lia Sophia representative. Seems easy enough. Ty is enthusiastic about it. I recently went out and purchased my first gun... Its a Taurus PT .22. Its a nice little gun! I have always been anti gun, at least for me anyways, because of my aunts murder. But I was reassured when I had yet another dream and she told me to protect myself, that it isnt the guns fault she is dead, it was his... Im still getting used to it, how to aim and all that. Ty has noticed that I pull on the gun when I pull the trigger so I am hitting more to the right then the left. Still with in the targeted area, but too far to the right! Ill get better =D I enjoy going to the range and shooting so in time i will get better.

Well school here is finally out, THANK GOD! I live less than 1 block away from an elementary school and its quite annoying having to go out and shoo people off of my lawn... They make friken parking lots for a reason. So now that school is out I will be making a nice long trip to southern florida to get my niece and bring her back here. She will probably remain here until she turns 18, thats only 9 months away and she will be at least spending the next three here... Law enforcement cant force her to go home if she doesnt want to. She knows she is allowed to stay as long as she wants as long as she finishes school and gets a job to get all the extras that she wants. I think she will do better here... We get along better than she does with either of her parents, and she has more opportunity here.She has goals and I will do anything to help her!

This coming monday I will be taking her to her first Psychopathic concert, possibly her first concert period... I dont know. Me, her and a few of my friends are going to see Boondox and Blaze and support our homie from back in the day Alonzo of Sektion 8. I will probably be taking her boyfriend to his first as well... =D good times and busy busy busy! I a really looking forward to it... Im excited! So are the rest of them.

I went to the ER I was night, i was diagnosed with Bronchitis and Strep throat. GREAT.. but Im on Antibiotics and steroids for the infamation and pain meds for the pain in my throat. it sucks but ill get through it... I just need some sleep. But at least mine is curable. I just recently found out that my grandmother has cancer for the 4th time ... She is going through CHEMO and radiation treatments every day for an hr for 6 weeks except on the weekends... Please anyone who reads this pray for her to get through this. Shes been in remission 3x already and I hope she makes it again.

Recently our air conditioning broke which really made me being sick, worse... but the air conditioner is partially fixed now... they are ordering a part for it that is broken... THANK GOD FOR WARRENTIES!!! The freon was low so the guy charged it, it should last the week til the part comes in. I dont know if I can handle the hot again. .... well thats about all I have for now... More to come later... Deuces!

The Job of Mommy: What the heck is Judgement day?

The Job of Mommy: What the heck is Judgement day?: "Honestly, I didn't hear about THE rapture until last night. Wait, what? I thought that was on 12/12/2012. Oh... that's a different End-o..."

Does anyone know anything about couponing?

Yeah im a coupon virgin... ive been reading a few sites and getting info but im so noob at this that idk where to begin... I have to wait until sunday to get coupons... i need to get ink for my printer... and i need to get a notebook with sleeves... but... how do i label the sleeves... by food group? by date? by item? by amount off? idk im so lost... please help me =(

Another crazy ass dream

So im up here in indiana visiting my parents, and last night i had this crazy dream but it was a very lucid dream. I was sitting at a table and my murdered aunt was laying there... but she looked fine. I held her hand and when i did she openedher eyes and smiled at me. I looked at her looking so peaceful and asked her how she was... then said its a stupid question. She smiled and said. Im okay, and you will be too. She said, "your mom and dad will be fine and i am sorry about the way patrick is being... but his kids will be okay... i love you..." i started to cry in my dream because i was so happy. I told her i love you too and miss you badly, but im glad ur okay. I asked her if she was going to be in trouble for visiting me... she assured me she wasnt. I accepted that and i hugged her. She layed back down and closed her eyes and then she was just a body. The spirit was gone. I woke up in a complete stupor. I went downstairs and everyone looked at me... mom asked me what was wrong. I told he that my aunt tammy came to see me. She waslike uh oh... then i sat down and started bawling... i told her about the dream and told her about how this is the first time she has spoken to me in my dreams... it was just so real....at least i know she is okay and i know ill be okay.

<3 pink pandalette

WHOOP WHOOP!

So i have been stupid fucking happy the last few weeks... I finally have my best friends all around me. Steven moved back here from Michigan. I am so glad he is home. He has helped us a great deal with removing shit for the remodel. oh and yeah by the way im remodeling my house =) and its weird how things work out when your so close.. Brandi and I have been friends since... like 1998 or 1999 something like that... and I met Steven through Brandi in like 2000, we were really good friends and I dont think that the distance and time apart changed a thing... I love them with a fucking passion... I am so fucking happy that I have them back in my life. Steven moved to Michigan in 2001 and Brandi and I swore we would look for him til we either found him or died trying... I had dreams about finding him and Brandi had her intuitions... low and behold, of all the fucking places to find him... FACEBOOK... yeah go fucking figure... it was one of those nights when i had that feeling that i needed to call brandi... it was mainly to rant about "her" ("her" name will never be mentioned in this blog cause shes a skank ass hoe... nuff said) "she" did something fucking stupid and i wanted to fucking blow the fuck up... i called Brandi because she feels the same way i do, im just more vocal about it. so anyways i call her (first time we spoke in months) and i tell her whats going on... she calls her a few names and we spend mayb 3 mins talking about it... then moved on to another subject... she works in medical records at the local jail and asked me what a friend of mines brothers name was... she said he was arrested... and i looked him up to make sure its him... then i had this chill... it was weird... im like... steven... we need to look for steven... so i opened all my search windows looking for his crazy ass... she looked on her data base for him... (just in case he turned into a trouble maker) i opened myspace, facebook, twitter, and various search engines to look his name up... i was on my facebook page and there was a hit, right age, in MI, i told brandi... " I THINK I FUCKING FOUND HIS ASS" SHES LIKE "WHAT????" SO i told her about what i found and sent him a message on August 5th 2010 saying " Do you know Brandi Royer or myself Heather Oakley from Auburndale?" i figured i would get fuck no who are you leave me alone... just like i have for the last 10 years... but not this fucking time... about 10 mins after i sent it i got a reply... "yeah i do..." I WAS LIKE " FUCK YES BRANDI ITS HIM!!!!" and I immediately gave him my number... its been a long year... 10 years since i fucking saw this guy... and it was like nothing ever changed... yeah Brandi and I got married, and her and Steven both have reproduced, something i have yet to experience... but its the same... its the fucking same... I love them to death... I am blessed to have them back in my life... I really have been so much happier since i have them back in my life. a series of events happened and Steven moved back home *here* and its been great... I get to hang out with my *TRUE FAMILY* My blood isnt the only family i got... My brother is a douchass and i dont give a fuck about it anymore... his kids are all i care about and they have nothing to do with his drunken ass... fuck him... or dont... i would advise not... anyways... family... they are the ones who really matter... the ones you love and if something happened to then it would hurt you... thats a fucking family.. and i love mine... but its 3 am and im toast... good night

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